{17-31,3-12,2022}

stop updating and start to updating on another blog.thanks for everything here.

{1-29,3-12,2022}

Yesterday I used my left money which I wanted to buy a peach can for myself buying bread, milk and pan cake for parents who told me they wanna to eat when feeling weak , dad has a peach can and he said he would share with me today when he refused to share it with me yesterday, then he blames me with mom for it and said they would share with me tomorrow.

I expected them to keep their words every time, just because I don't wanna to believe that they are lying, to me. It sucks .

On one side they blame and curse me being shit for nothing to do, no job ,no money, no car, no house, no marriage, no kid when on another side they take all sources from me to live, to survive, to make money for enjoying, to make communism friends for fun, to keep relationship for communism power, to service Chinese Party of communism, by and to support communists in this area, streets, town, city, province and the country who give them money to betray ,to lie, to cheat, to bully, to blackmail and hurt me.

I thought they protected me by covering me up ,that's why they corrupt with Chinese Party of communism by shows.then I see who cover me up is not them, what they do is as same as Chinese Party of communism for themselves by taking or using me or selling me.they are sacrificing me for communism and they never are satisfied. Even if I'm a victim, I aren't innocent, i need to pay for it, too.

{16-37,3-11,2022}

100% ambition , 100% destroy.

100% power , 100% corruption.

100% of 100% for oneself, best of the best for oneself, purest of purest for oneself, isn't a little better than 100% oneself for someone else, for God, for angels. 

This is why human is human instead of being animals, demons and monsters.

{19-10,3-10,2022}

after dreaming my mother calling me when I put food for cats, this morning a cat which waits me at the same place every time when I pass by called me again from the same direction, sounds like: hey, are you putting food for cats, could I have some? Then I put food down, she jumps on the desk and starts to eat them all.

I never take care of cats or being cat mom, perhaps for me,they are my mom.they take care of me instead, teach me how to love, remind me God's everywhere. That's what my friends so to me, too.

{16-47,3-10,2022}

the world, everybody takes much more from each other than what they have day after day, time after time, respect, care, love, money, power, imagine, trust, time, faith, patience, attention, civilization, compassion competition imagination,  even sadness, tears snd blood, everything.first, virus, then, wars, there might be a hand to make them happen, the point is whose hand? God's? Or hand of (sons of ) bitches?

Some (foreign) Chinese and communists post on Twitter that the 8-kids chained Chinese woman said'the world left her ' , 'the world abandons her or doesn't wanna her anymore'. So the question is: if the world doesn't wanna me, why I wanna the world? 

When human or life only has desire of survive or survive instinct when fighting against criminals, and bad evil things by pressure of darkness and even demon,  what's left?

{14-57,3-10,2022}

When I know Ukraine is attacked and invaded by Russia, I feel angry and believe Ukraine will make it and Russia deserves it. When I know Russia is losing and falling, perhaps wars would end soon, I feel more sad and hurt, in wars all life suffers and die for nothing, after wars there's another start, could it be little better than war itself?

{1-08,3-9,2022}

now I understand what Mr fox means , good man makes a mistake,it might be still good, but a bad man makes a mistake,it must be dead.

But Putin, if he doesn't have lovers who could be corrupted when he marries and stop drinking or have unnecessary fun deadly instead of working hard and focus on his stuffs, he would not start such a war in Ukriane for nothing and makes such a mistake, and most important thing, if he doesn't trust or make friends with villains who stick knifes on his back, he would be a good one, again.

Honestly, now who stay closed with Russia , Putin, perhaps is who wants to be the last straw to break the camel's back, perhaps who is the first villain to harm them.

Wake up , Putin, stop following any other and doing wrong things. be yourself, be free. Stay with the world, but stay away from villains who harm and use you. China is still that China, communists are still those communists, something never change.

You can stop yourself. 

For Russian whom are not in Siberian 'underground city' designed to survive a nuclear war like your family members, for whom are still on battlegrounds in Ukraine to be against the world for your mistake, for whom are struggling in pains between being dead and being alive, whatever Russian, Ukraine, or anybody else.

Or you just can't and that's why you push any other country to stop you or something by killing your people and punishing your governments and judging your country in this way , for yourself only? 

Nobody could take this responsibility alone.Even if you don't have choice but to be one of the biggest assholes in history, but all Russian still have, all Ukrainian still have,all the world still have.

Today I apologize to fox that I choose cats instead of choosing him, I say I'm sorry. He says everything will be all right, honey.

Nobody should die for what lying to them, harming them, cheating them, betraying them.nobody should fight against or stay away from  each other for being against each other only, or hurting even killing each other for culture, politics and economy, etc.Nobody should be hurt, harmed, die because of someone something who don't love care respect them.

It's not worthy. God, save them, help them, guide them, protect them. Matthew 8:17
[17]That it might be fulfilled which was spoken by Esaias the prophet, saying. Himself took our infirmities, and bare our sickness.

{16-16,3-8,2022}

Churchill said' price of greatness is responsibility', not money or power, not relationships or whom I know or not, not the directions to step forward or back and escape.

{9-02,3-8,2022}

I suddenly feel frightened about this war, perhaps Ukraine doesn't only fight against Russia, but also the whole world including EU, America, French and all of them, especially China: nationalism, communism, socialism and Marxism.

Ukraine uses itself pointing towards to truth when Russia's sacrificing itself to cover it up.

And truth, perhaps now it's everywhere. Unless I change.

{00-30,3-8,2022}

Never feel a world is so closed to by the war.

Corrupted governments and their employees never do anything to benefit their people or citizens, or they would never corrupt.

Selfish of normal people benefit normal people themselves.but selfish of governments employees is corruption which has too much power, it could not only benefit them, but also kill who they serve - people and citizens at the same times.

Perhaps someday I would see the Chinese communists are someone who are hurt by truth of Chinese nation then they become evil.Perhaps someday I could see Chinese communists are meaning to sacrifice themselves for Chinese until they see something they never saw and can't forgive or understand before and they change them forever.Perhaps someday I see Chinese communists are so pure that they rescue some Chinese who might be ccommunists who might not be communists by taking them abroad out of China, even have their babies for them, like planting seeds in the world.

But even though Chinese Party of communism's  China and Chinese are both lies which they never exist, what's the matter? cause even when they betray the whole world I could not betray myself.

Someone who feed feral laugh at me who treating cats as my own kids because I don't have kids. It's a mistake. I treat cats as my kids, not because I treat them as my kids or I don't have my own kids, but because they treat me as their mom.

{1-04,3-7,2022}

Ukraine is one part of Chinese Communism Party's one belt one road which's evil ambition plan to rule the world.if Ukraine surrounds with Russia which's used for being used and Ukraine China's communists could threat even control anybody and anything in the world.

Ukraine could keep ccorrupting like Russia with China to destroy the the whole word on the easier ways, but they don't. They choose to stand with EU and America and their amazing citizens in a more difficult status. Who have such balls like them to do so they can blame and talk even do bad things behind their backs!

Ukrainian are doing the right things for the whole world . they shall be respected, honored and cared. 

God bless Ukraine,God bless their amazing lands and desendents for at least a very very very long time.

{15-23,3-6,2022}

covering truth, so Chinese Party of communism and its government could make money by lies, dealing under the tables, so they could benefit themselves and make others take blames for power.

First, make wuhan virus to spread the world, kills billions , then tempt Russia towards wars to effect the world, kills billions? Or going to kill billions again? By nuclear weapons?

What do they want? Both money and power in their pockets and hands to use? Companies to sell and betray? Only?

{13-28,3-6,2022}

the kitty is in forever home now with her families who adopt her this Friday before weather got cold again. here's the video they sent to me.Thank God For Everything.

{5-00,3-5,2022}

The adopter says the cat has some problem of breathing, perhaps it's heart problem because she looks like an American shorthair cat which i was born in Chinese pet stores to breed for sell and caused by homeless life in streets, genes problems by human when they cut in. lots of things happen in these places, lots of cats are killed, sold, abandoned and even when they are bought or adopted, they don't have much time to live, because of gene defect or other problems.

Hard to give up when doing the right things. But is it must a wrong thing for me when I want to give it up? Giving up is wrong or the thing being given up is wrong? Is giving up a wrong thing wrong?

People always judge by judgements. They say poor people having no money have gold hearts,too, so is it right to judge who have gold hearts or not when they judge they have money or not for them first? 

I don't like that.judge others to be bad or poor then judging them to be good or rich, it's so called fair in mortality games.it's based on superiority of power  which is called communism.

No, someone who are lied never can not deputy everyone's wills.so billions people could? Even all of them? Never.And that's how Jesus died for saving human being.

When human use A to get B by C, they start to and be tempted to use C judging A and B both. Is it right? When people use love to get cats or anything anybody by money, when Russia use hate to get Ukraine by wars, when human use anything and anybody else to get themselves surviving living and benefited by communism and morality, is it right to judge love and cats etc by money, is it right to judge hate and Ukraine by wars, is it right to judge anything anybody else by communism or morality ? Is life which is created by God and made by human same?

If I don't care about and talk about and think about things among Ukraine and Russia and China happening, nobody knows and cares there's me with a bunch of cats in a corner of the world needing help, perhaps they still don't know and care us yet.how many people or life die like this in the world silently quietly without being even noticed in chaos? The wars among these big countries refer to somebody's benefits. When attentions of the world all focus on the chaos like a big show what's happening in the dark behind the stage? 

What's the truth?

{18-04,3-4,2022}

the homeless cat is adopted. Thank God and His bless her having a long happy healthy fantastic life with full of food,water, safe warm clean comfortable home place to settle,cares,love,respects and dignity, friends families and her human to be with, to play with, to take care of each other. 

God bless all my friends like that.whatever and whoever they are.

{3-43,3-4,2022}

Don't wanna to say Ukraine is 'being raped by Russia', cause Ukraine finally finds its true love which loved it, supports it and give its weapons and armies and everything it needs to defend, to fight against , even win Russia.

Don't wanna to say Ukraine would be another Hong Kong, cause Hong Kong has been China's in 1997, it seems like a family matter which the world couldn't cut in. But Ukraine is an independent country.

Don't wanna to say America, Eu, NATO and any other countries don't do anything more to help Ukraine.they do their best, especially do it together when foreign volunteers soldiers and fighters get Ukraine to fight for what it's right.

Don't wanna to say Ukraine which is so easily not to be understood and even so easily to be misunderstood in this case would lose, cause it will not.

I'm happy for Ukraine, it's a necessary step forwards to future for all human kind. God bless each of them all, perhaps just the right time to meet someone who love you by their hearts, instead of some sons of bitches who treat female like shit.

{5-02,3-3,2022}

it's strange that men always say women are so stupid that women are so easy to be lied and even a word could makes women believe and fall in love with men when each of them wanna to do the same things on women, too.

At least I don't raise up cats and help them by words only.

Why I was sex harassment by strangers on my way home, in buses, why I was sex assaulted by dad, why I was raped by cousin, I don't like sex, I don't like fuck in my life, I don't like making love because of depressing , isolated and communism life, love and country. Could anybody change it by penis, could I change it by fucking myself, could somebody change it by shows? 

Whatever happened, happens or will happen, I don't have special feels  , emotions on or wanna sex when I have strong sexuality with born always it doesn't mean I'm a cold blood, bitch and even a physical patient for everything.

{9-41,3-3,2022}

Someone sell passion, poison, politics, cheats, betray,body,  knowledge, sell books, face,young, age, technology, wisdom, sex, and I sell sexuality. Cool, I feel sexuality is digging my heart every day and this deepless hole is going to somewhere. Never feel satisfy on sex, even in love I only focus on sex when I feel sad, painful depressed and lost instead of genders or relationship or blood ties.Never make love for me for real, only sex games and have fun and for live, sometimes I feel I'm a vampire which only wanna blood and never understand what is love. Anybody's fault that they don't love me and they always say even I pay them to sex ,to love , to marry ,to live with me they never do that.I could communicate only by sex, I'm sorry for that.

But I never give up.

When human believe something, they have lives like something. They believe communism, they live in barren land.they believe demon, they live in hell, they believe God, they live in heaven.it's never about where you are, how do you live. The only difference between Chinese and African is that Chinese want to cover their barren ground by expensive stuffs when African want to show them up by what they need.

Communism for me should has been something sharing what communists have, especially things which could benefit the whole world and life, universe and even God, instead of taking away what they don't have from any others for benefiting only themselves.

China and Chinese party of communists, you make a big mistake.

{20-11,3-2,2022}

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{4-25,3-2,2022}

For good rules are for respecting and loving  each other, for villains rules are for cheating and robbing things, for dictators and tyrants rules are for slaving and killing life.

In bible it says Jesus is risen from death in the end of Sabbath, as it began to dawn towards the first day of the week[Matthew 28] .

In Chinese Taoism it also say after dead life would come back to see their families friends and someone they care when they were alive then return to heaven or hell at the seventh day.

The best defend is offense.the whole world has Ukraine's back when it's not the time to act or be a President of the world for it. Presidentes exist because of and for their citizens who are fighting for them, not for rules. things start by self, end by self. attack back against enemies for their attacks, step out the lines, even just once, break rules for each other again, remove evil power as being yourselves.